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BEAUTIFUL Oh listen to my heart~

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every one is welcome. Leave if u're unhappy.
and i don't entertain people. tyvm.

just as simple as that

Heello. Didn't have time to post for a very long time.. This June holidays are totally awesome to the max! But I didn't like the part where I need to go back to school. I'm glad that angklung alive concert is done. Super junior, u-kiss and beast came during this June holidays! I didn't really care if I go or not, but I managed to see all 3! Because of this, I'm now currently broke. Haha. As I mentioned in the previous post about the suju's showcase.. It was awesome.. But not for the queuing part. Ukiss' fans are friendly. Even though I didn't get to see them face to face during the fan meeting session.. But I'm lucky enough to win the lucky draw and to get their autographed poster and 1pair of tickets to watch the sheng shiong show (: their showcase was the best! I seriously had lots of fun that day. Also, beast was the most memorable one! Hi5 session was fun. I get to hi5 all of them :D dongwoon smiled! Directly at me! As for the autographed session.. The queuing seriously SUCKS! Because of the stupid thing, the stupid organizer make us stand under the rainy weather, now I'm down with a flu, sore throat and fever.. How annoying. But I guess it's all worth it.. Because of beast! Also, I get to know new friends ^-^! when I was going up to the stage for their autograph, I thought that I won't have any nervious feelings.. But! When yoseob smiled at me, my heart was thumping so fast! He smiled, and I smiled back.. Den he look down and sign the album.. He smiled back again when he finish signing. How cute can he be?! Hyunseung gave me a very friendly smile.. So is doojoon.. As for dongwoon.. I think I've been to heaven for a second. I didn't plan to say anything.. Cos I feel very awkward.. But dongwoon smiled at me and said hi to me after I smiled back.. Ohmygooosh. So sweeeeet. How I wish I said saranghae to him ytd.. Pft. Kikwang.. Junhyung.. Funny people.. Haha! 
This was a super super wonderful memory for me! Aaaahh! I will upload pics when I'm free.. Just hope that I'll feel better tmrw.. 
Annyeong!

Ihateyou.

I've never thought that I'd hate u. Well,it's ur fault.. You're the one who asked for it. I won't mention anything here. But, I'm sure all my close friends around me know what happened, and who did it. Like to do it so much? You think it's fun to copy others? Hah. I recommand u to jump off the buildings or eat shit right now. Sure.. Go ahead and listen to what those sucidals do.. Since u like it so much. I know that u'll definetly enjoy it. Go back to ur own world. Go back to where u belongs and where u come from.. Stop all ur nonsense. It doesn't suits u.. There's something I always wanted to tell u.. "wake up. Stop copying what others do. Have a sense of ur own originality and not others.."..
Just how annoying can u be..?

Haven't post for quite a long time.. Oh anw, on the 6th I went to suju's showcase. I never think that I can actually see them live but yes. A lot of unhappy things had happened in that morning and afternoon. Thanks to those cheena people. Bitch. I guess they don't have any manners and their parents didn't teach them. Awww. I don't pity them at all. Well, that stupid short hair woman stepped on my hand and didn't even bother to turn around and apologis?! Wow. And guess what. She looks like she's in her mid twenties! How can such people exsit.. You're old.. Suju won't like u. They'll only like older Korean woman. Not cheena. Oh anw, let's just put that aside. 730, showcase started. So near yet so far :( but I enjoyed. Tiring, but worth it(: the only thing is that kyuhyun didn't come due to his surgery.. Sigh. Get well soon !

7-10th. Tough training for angklung alive concert. Real tiring. Whole body is aching:( but I love how we played the mission impossible.. & mama mia. Love the catchy rhythm. Just hope I won't have to go through this again.. (: can't wait for ukiss meet and greet/ showcase! Wheeeee~

I think.. I survived today?
Seriously.. But I think that school lessons are now somehow better than cca. It really make me feel very stress out! I just can't stop thinking about wads gonna happen next.. Scoldings.. Maybe. I just wish that I'm not in this cca. I've made the wrong choice.. I don't seems to enjoy it anymore. Not a single bit. I think that going for cca is a total waste of time for me now. I want to depend on those seniors again. I want to be like a kid who always get the compliments when u did something good. I want.. I want..
I want to be a sec1 again..
I once loved cca. But,not anymore for now. Cca it's just like a total nightmare to me nowadays. Thinking of it makes me feel stress out.. Thinking of it makes my headache go worst! I've been waiting for someone to come back.. Just to guide us.. Just for now.. Until next year's syf is over.. Guide us.. Will you?
I've never,ever.. Feel that I'm dying from stress before! Really. I thought that eveything was so easy to solve it.. And I don't feel that stress at all. For syf, yes.. Of course there will be some stress.. But not until I can't take it anymore and just burst out crying. Seriously.. I really can't take this anymore longer.. I'm afraid that I might just go insane and get depression sooner or later.
Please.. Tell me what to do..
I should just not care about cca..
Should I..?
I'm feeling so sick now.. I can't think anymore..